Luke Stilwell

Luke and Masami

The Love Song of Cancer Boy

Two days out of the hospital and kind of bitter

I could end up being that asshole

My cancer is more important than your petty triumphs

and set backs

I am Cancer Boy

Look upon my diaries and despair

I look up and chills are drenched in blood

The jaws of gold illuminated a sunset fire

The sky mass of darkness clouds

held up by those bloody pampers

But then how am I going to build up

my neo-platonic high rise to whatever

blissy heaven is up there?

The only face that matters to me now

the only face that sparks is my wife!s

Romantic?

Sickeningly so?

It sounds like a cheap line

But there you go

This means she is more important to me

than ever before and I am terrified

of losing that face

the kindness

the sympathy.... If I lose that,

I am nothing

Please my love,

let me ask even more of you

—Luke Stilwell (1968-2015)